kkoming:

To 김종운, Kim Jongwoon, Yesung. To our beloved Prince of Clouds, Happy 30th Birthday.

Like last year and the year before and the year before that, I don’t know where to begin. I’ve gone on about how talented you are, and how hard you work, and how more handsome and sweet you become every day. How you pull off pink so well and I don’t mind when your trousers end before your ankles. How excited I get whenever you post a selca and you’re wearing the pretty turquoise bracelet that I happen to be wearing at the same time. 

I’m having difficulty thinking about what to write, because what is different between this year and the last is that I finally met you.

I got to look you in the eye and tell you you’re my favorite, and you were told you helped me get into college and how much you mean to me, and nothing I write here can compare to the look on your face when you smiled at me after that.

I don’t mind that I’m just your fan and that you might never know my name, or that I can’t get you super expensive gifts, or see you every spare moment.

Since last year, I realized to make you smile is all I ever wanted, and I finally got to do that. I realized that yes, I really do love you, in my own way. You’re the person who helped me pull myself out of a dark place, and helped me want to chase my dreams. And when I met you and realized saw that you’re still the Yesung I have loved for this whole time, who wears orange socks and deserves respect and has a voice that makes my heart tingle, I decided I’ll never regret any moment I dedicated to you. 

I’ve grown up a lot since your last birthday, but I still love you more and more every day. I wish for your happiness always and I anticipate the next time I can see you smiling. No matter what you decide to do after your military service or where you go, I’ll always cheer you on as the Yesung who is my favorite singer, as the Jongwoon who saved me, as the cloud prince of my dreams. 

I miss you and I owe you so much. I wish I was better with words.

Happy Birthday, 오빠 ♥